Thinking...

My sleep sched is a wreck!
I mean, it's my own fault for not doing important things like going to bed at a decent time. But so what, you only live once (that we know of) and you can sleep when you're dead, right? Right. So yea, going to bed before 1am is overrated, and frankly, I feel, unproductive.
I am sure this would change if my time was not divided up between doing nothing and working on my freelance writing projects.
And, this weekends zombie movie extravaganza probably did not help any. But hey, how often do you get to dress like a goth kid and then mega-morph into a zombie (ok for me, just this once). It was a blast! So fun. I was only an extra, but then had the privilege of being in charge of doing zombie make-up and costume fixes.
I was very much a Jane of all trades on the set.
I hope I get the make up credit... if not, oh well...
I will MOST definitely post a link if not the whole thing via youtube here.

Moving on....
actually no, there isn't much to move on to... just me being me.

I write, I photograph... and that's really all there is.

Umm... What just happend?

My life just fell into my lap.

I somehow managed to land a job doing what I love to do.....
Does this actually happen to people? Do you really ACTUALLY get to do what you want, and get paid for it? It seems a bit... too good to be true. I mean MAYBE I am just over thinking it a little bit... yea. I am.

So yea...

I got what I wanted...



and am now waiting to eaten alive by Alsatians.

Bills... Anyone?

So, with moving across the country, it takes a little time for all your bills to show up.

And most people check theirs online, ya know, as so payments are not late.
mmmhmmm.
Yea, with the dial up connection and my life seemingly to be unraveling with a barage of texts, emails, and an endless aray of job interviews... I over-looked looking up when and how much my bills were.
Silly, I know.
Careless, yea, that too.

All are past due.
AND I don't have a hard copy, I just looked it all up. And let me tell you.

THOSE ARE NOT A PRETTY SET OF NUMBERS!

So.
Before I go into this next interview, I set here, in a financial state of panic, not really sure of what to do... I might run to the self-help section of the library and cry.
No one will find me there, and maybe I could learn how to pull this stuff together... I gal can hope right?

But instead, I will chalk this one up to my own careless-ness and un-awareness. It was my mistake, these are my bills.

oooopps?
yea, BIG oops.

Just another day in the life of someone TRYING to get their life back together when the economy, is like it is.
YES!!

There is my answer, blame the economy!

'Cause, You Know... Life is Fair.

Lets all pretend for a moment that life is fair.
Totally unabashedly 100% fair. (yea, I know its not)

Say, there is this lovely-amazing-talented person who is hard-working-dedicated and does everything they can to further themselves (not selfishly NOR destroying those around them). Say this SAME person has been... un-employed for an (seemingly) overwhelming amount of time.

This person in question... might have finally caught a break.
Maybe.
Too bad they are hesitant and waiting for the other shoe to drop.